Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Turning off

Does anyone else have trouble turning off their thoughts? Does it stop you from making a simple decision?

I am over it. I go to bed, read for an hour, turn off the light and Bam! Here come all of the negative thoughts, and not so negative thoughts. The next thing I know is its 3 am and I am wide awake.

This year I decided to do Ali Edwards One Little Word class. Do you think I can settle on a word? Of course not! I think I have changed words 3 times and it's only the first month.

Before Christmas I was fired from my casual position for no reason. I had worked there for over 2 years and was devastated to be told I wasn't needed anymore. Yep, you guessed it, every night I go over everything I said or did trying to figure out why I was fired.

Deep down I know worrying is not going to change anything, but I can't help it.

I worry about my girl and her life. I worry about my husband who is having blood pressure issues. I worry about my mum and her health. I worry about what people think of me.

I am going crazy!

It's all about baby steps, and I try to keep occupied during the day so the thoughts don't creep in. It's the night that is doing me in.

Does anyone have any suggestions?

Bye for now,
Deb x

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